Personal Update: Graduation and Hospitalizations


Hi everyone, I’m sorry for my lengthy disappearance from this blog. Life has been crazy for me. For starters, I spent the week before finals in the medical hospital due to one of my organs acting up.  It wasn’t fun, and it was quite painful, but I made it through the semester both graduating  with my degree and earning a spot on the Dean’s list.

Then, things got even crazier. I had to spend the better part of the month in psychiatric hospital due to some instability on my part. I am, of course, out now; however, it was really hard not to leave against medical advice. This particular hospital had a lot of violence between patients, but it did slow down after the first week I was there. I did manage to complete the program.

Nevertheless, I now see life through a clearer lens. I am very optimistic that I have solved my problems. Now, all I have to do is decide where I want to move to and what kind of career I want. I my struggles as old news, and I am now ready to move on with my new beginning.

To all my comrades going through mental health struggles, know when to get help and don’t be ashamed.

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Life is Fragile


Life is fragile, and I don’t mean this in just the sense that we will all die one day. Everything in your personal life can fall apart, quite easily I might add. A person can, unfortunately, develop a mental disorder. Unexpected bills can pop up at the same time a person loses their job abruptly. We are all just a few short steps away from staring at the abyss. I’m not being pessimistic. I’m making a point. Everything we loves in life whether it be our health, our sanity, our possessions, or even our relationships can wither away in what seems like an instant.

Most of us teeter around thinking if we work hard and make good decisions everything will work out. Or a person may think if they have God on their side, they simply cannot fail. Well, I don’t think either of the those notions are true. Now, certainly, making good decisions and working hard can, perhaps, curb the probability of the good life in one’s favor. Still, nothing is guaranteed in life, so we end up walking around in self delusion.

Perhaps, this need for self-delusion is why people “need” religion in the first place. Perhaps, they just need to believe everything will work out the end. Unfortunately, this is often enough not the case, and yes, peoples’ lives, even religious peoples’ lives, can end up in complete tragedy.

I am not, for one moment, trying to make believers seem either weak or crazy. I cannot blame them for their needs. I think the beautiful, although inaccurate, belief that everything is going to be okay, is unavoidable. It is a very human need, and without it being fulfilled, one can easily become neurotic.

Still, I do not suggest we walk around ignoring that everything in life is fragile, but if one does work hard and strives to make good decisions, one should not dwell on the possibility that everything could be ripped out from under them. It’s simply not beneficial to our mental state.

A Minature Review of Penn and Teller: Bullshit!


I’ve been watching Penn and Teller: Bullshit! It’s free on my amazon prime account. This show is supposed to expose hoaxes, scams, and the like. Bullshit! was my first introduction to Penn and Teller. Before, that my only real knowledge of them was that they were magicians and outspoken atheists with crass vocabulary.

I can get passed the cornucopia of foul language; although, I would prefer not to be exposed to it. Still, this is not a show with an adequate amount of reason. For example, there is episode on environmentalism. They claim that the environmental movement is entrenched in political movements such as socialism. (This maybe true.) They then conclude that, while discussing socialism may be beneficial, hoaxes are not. Guess what the hoax is: global warming and other environmental concerns.  Although they do a good job of making certain people look stupid, they conclude that there isn’t enough evidence for climate change.

What the actual hell? Maybe Penn and Teller should have spent more time looking at the data and less time making 20-something hippies look stupid.

Struggling with Vegetarianism


As an atheist, I do not see myself as “special” due to a soul. Instead, I see myself as a human animal, who like other humans, happens to have the most complex brain, when compared to other animals, so I, also, care about the suffering of animals. Animals are different than humans, cognitively speaking, but other animals do feel pain. Now, I don’t consider mere physical pleasure and suffering to be the only thing that matters, but I do think the pain and pleasure of other animals matter. Thus, I decided to become a vegetarian, but I am struggling quite a bit.

For meals at home, it is easy to not eat meet, usually, but I, occasionally, eat at restaurants. It is very hard to find vegetarian options at restaurants where I live. I suppose I could order a salad, but they are usually higher in calories than even cheese burgers. Plus, their more expensive. Then again, I could eat fish, which would at least cause less suffering, but once again it is more expensive.

Sometimes, I eat at other peoples’ homes, which is even harder. I do not feel comfortable telling people they have to serve a vegetarian option. I don’t really know what to do there. Then again, they already bought the meat, and the animal is already dead. Ugh, I don’t know a good solution.

Perhaps, my fellow vegetarian bloggers can help me. Anyone have any advice?

An Atheist and Mentally Ill Persons Guide to Happiness


  • Know when to quit. Try your best, and know your limits.
  • Chronic failure means a chronic problem. Don’t be ashamed to get help.
  • Think of failure as a beginning of something and not an end in itself.
  • Other people matter, but their unjustified negative opinions of you don’t.
  • Very few things are do or die.
  • Things can always get better or worse, but you might as well enjoy the ride.
  • Feeling overwhelmed? Take some you time. An unmade bed never hurt anyone.
  • Be kind and patient with others.
  • Do not spread yourself thin.
  • Always challenge yourself. It’s fun.
  • Be honest with yourself about your flaws, but don’t make yourself miserable. Just try to fix the problem.
  • Be intellectually curious and honest.